Tuesday Truth

"If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me." Jeremiah 29:13

I'm still reading through the Old Testament. Finally, I reached Psalms, a little easier read than the other chapters. But, of course, even in Psalms I have questions. So after reading Psalms, I flipped pages through the Bible just wanting to find something that I didn't question. Can you guess what it was? Correct. Jeremiah 29:13. "IF you look for me WHOLEHEARTEDLY, you WILL find me." Hmm...I've read this before but not like this time. If you look for me, not "if I look for you", not "if you need me", but "if you look for me". If we don't look for God, how can we expect to find Him? And we have to look "wholeheartedly" not half-heartedly, not partially...but "wholeheartedly".

Without question, without doubt, I know that God is here, but it is up to us to seek Him with all that we are and understand His constant presence in our lives.

Stand in the Rain

"Why" Wednesday

Why is it...so easy to question and so much harder to believe?

"...I tell you the truth, if you have faith and don't doubt, you can do all things like this and much more..." Matthew: 21-21


Side note: I am in a little funk, but trust that I will get out of it.

I Just Don't Understand...

Calloused and bruised, dazed and confused
My Spirit is left wanting something more than my selfish hopes and my selfish dreams
I'm lying with my face down to the floor, I'm crying out for more
Give me Words to speak
Don't let my Spirit sleep Cause I can't think of anything worth saying
But I know that I owe You my life
So give me Words to speak
Don't let my Spirit sleep
Every night, every day I find that I have nothing left to say
So I stand here in silence awaiting Your guidance
I'm wanting only Your voice to be heard
Let them be Your Words
I just don't understand this life that I've been living
I just don't understand
I just don't understand these lies I've been believing, I just don't understand
I know that I owe you my life

-Give Me Words to Speak (Aaron Shust)

Monday Mantra

Nothing will change if I don't change it.

Lesson 41: 1 Corinthians 6:12

"You say, "I am allowed to do anything"--but not everything is good for you. And even though "I am allowed to do anything," I must not become a slave to anything." 1 Corinthians 6:12

Such a perfect verse for me right now.

Monday Music

Bring me anything that brings You glory.

All Mixed Up

I can't seem to put my thoughts together lately. I've started two different posts, but can't finish them. I don't know in what direction to go. It's like I have a part of me that is confused. I have questions for God and about God (I guess reading the Old Testament might do that to you). But at the same time I have a part of me that praises God and knows God is present and for us. Not to mention, the confusion about myself and living for God...am I doing things His way or my way? Could I be doing more? Should I be doing more?

For the last hour or so, I've been listening to Steven Curtis Chapman's "I Will Trust You". And no matter how much confusion I have and feel, I know this about God:

I know His heart is good, I know His love is strong , and I know His plans for me are much better than my own.

Friday Declaration

God, I WILL trust You.

Tuesday Truth

The last few days my prayer to God has been "God, please help me glorify You, today." Just yesterday, I prayed that same prayer. Here is what happened...

Every day after work, I get on the bus to come home. After a day at work, I want to nap and listen to my Ipod on the bus ride. So I get on the bus and I have my Ipod in my hand, ready to start relaxing. The girl sitting next to me, turns to me excitedly and says "Aren't you excited about the holidays?" Holidays, I think to myself, I am just ready for Friday. I quickly say, "I don't have any plans yet"...thinking when is it a good time to actually insert my earphones. Then it dawned on me..."God, is this you telling me to not be so self-centered?" Was this God speaking to me, telling me to give up a little "me" time, to maybe glorify Him?

I listened to this nice girl and we carried on the conversation...work, food, vacation trips. By the time I knew it...we were already at the park n ride.

Does this one tiny little thing count as glorifying God? I'm not sure, but I like to think so.

"If you love only those who love you, what reward is there for that...If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else?" Matthew 5:46-47